just wanna say everything out to vain my anger and sadnesss..

ever since the 3rd of feB which is our 5th month, where u quarrel wit poh heng and jasper .. our relationship have changed completly .
after u have made up wit them u spend most of yr time wit yr friends ... everyday day i have to work ... only at nite i can c u . but every time only during the nite u will go and meet yr friends . and tats the time i always free to meet u . during the nite at most i can c u for 4 to 5 hours ... is tat alot to u ... 24 hrs and i only wanna take 4 to 5 hrs of yr time . but even tis u cant give me ... i know for the past few months u already spend alot of time wit me and have further yr friendship wit yr friends but u suddenly have tis changed wit me i really cannot accept it ... i am someone who is ver yvery sensitive ... i tend to think alot ...
i am sure u dun know something. since our 4 month , u have been decreasing the msg u sent me .
even if i dun get to c u , wit yr msg i am already contented ... but of course msg cant replace u . if i can c u is the best .
the sweetness u gave me b4 we stead and after we stead is totally different . b4 we stead u put in all the effort to win my heart . but after u won it ... as days goes by i feel tat the effort is decreasing .
but u know wat ??? as days goes by my love for u is increasing . tats y nw i am feeling more and more sad ...
i doubt u know tat i have been crying almost everyday at nite alone .
u always say i have been keeping everything to myself . but its nt wat i wan . i just dunno hw to express it out . the only way i express hw i feel towards tis is just tears .

i am really very very sad espically tis month ... tears have been flowing down easily . becoze i just miss and love u too much ... sometimes i really feel like ending tis pain once and for all by breaking but i cant bare to do it . coze i love u too deeply .

there are many incident tat make me feel tat as compared to yr bros out there i am just so insignificant ...
eg : i told u jun han drop all my diamonds tat i put on the hp .. wat u say was just aiya nvm lah ... can buy de .... but u know i feel very sad tat day ... its just tat its yr birthday i dunwanna ruin it ... and the cake $30 i pay about all myslef . only jasper paid $4 ... nw its nt the matter of money but for the money i spend i gt is nth ...
the birthday present i gave u ... its still wit me ... when u received it , u didnt even take a single look at it !!!!!!!!! know hw i feel ?

I REALLY FEEL TAT IN YR HEART I AM NTH !!!!

when i saw tat nacy and kelly sms u ... yes i am jealous ... but i keep it down in my heart coze i trust u ... no matter hw unhappy i am , i dun tell u !!! coze i dun wanna hurt out relationship .
whenever we quarrel , i try my very very best nt to tok back coze if i do tat things will worsen and eventually i will say a break ... tis is y i try to keep mum and let u scold and say ...i know hw u feel when i sms david ... so in the end i let u call him ... and i still choose nt to quarrel wit u ... i did tis coze i wan u to trust me ... tats all !!!!!!!

eg : during yr parents birthday , bear bear say i am firlt coze i tok photo wit yan qi ... i cry for so many days .... but u r still helping yr friend and nt me ... i am really heart broken .. really really heart broken ...

my heart nw is in bits and pieces ...

i can only get my laughter back when u r around but ..., i think i cant get it much already ...
school is reopening soon .. the chance to meet is even lesser ... so i think our relationship will go down the track too .

all i can say is i love u alot ... but if my tears continue to flow down... something will happen and i dun think i nd to say it out ...

i dun wanna quarrel wit u .. becoze of tis entry , if u c tis ...if u cant also nvm le ... i just only wanna let u know hw i feel ... coze i cannot say tis face to face wit u ... i really feel very hurt ... but i cant tell anyone

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