EEVRYTHING I SEE NW IS UGLY BECOZE MY MOOD IS AS UGLY .
today is 31 of march . going to a 4 day camp on 3th of april till 6th april.
totally have no mood .... my face is black for 2 days le ... i am feeling bloody restless . nth make me smile nth interest me ay all NTH !!!!!
wat am i going to do ..

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me trying out the shirt at mango heee... like tis shirt so much but ex .. hahah.. haiz

do i look like QOO hahha...
the 2 plates of potatoe i ate
me !!!!
my 3 scoopzzz ice cream
me also trying out shirt and i bought tis heee..

went to sentosa today for job interview wit jemaine and nelson(jemaine's furture bf ) heee...the interview was so scary !!!! we had the interview wit 7 person and a person in charge . she ask us to intoduce ourself but i dunno hw to start coze i have nv been interview like tis b4 hee.. so shy ... but the pay nt very gd leh $5.4 only then we work only during evenings for the SONGS OF THE SEA ... but still nt confirm tat we can go in but if we gt in they will have to train us for 4 days .. haiz so scary !!!! ahhhh... we also went to the underwater world to ask if there were jobs there hee.. jope i can work there !!!!!!!!!!! love those sea creatures !!! hahaha...

anyway today went to vivo b4 going sentosa so we went to shop heee. i bought a MANGO shirt quite nice lah hee... jemiane bought a necklace too but nt at mango lah other place hee .. i ate so many things today . i ate ice cream [ 3 scoops ] , magnium classic , 2 plate of potatoe at MARCHE , choco eclair at beard pa pa wah so many htings hoh heee.. so ful sia .. fat liao lah haha... took a fewphotos of myself too heee

after everything went back to boonlay then went to find my laogong heee... he nt feeling welll wo having headache heee... so xin tong haha..

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i am so tired ...slept at 1 + and now i woke up at 8+ . omg i am going to die haha. yesterday went to sp to buy my new laptop hee... wth make me so angry ... we nd to go and make the sudent card then i thought after that we can go but the kept us so long there and nt let us go ... i am feeling so hungry but yet they still so irritating ahhh... hate it ... in the end we decided to go to the spsu camp ...
after putting our laptop back hm .. jemaine and i went out again all the way to Eunos . just to hear some things tat ppl are doing all tat lah ... actually today we still have to go but we decided nt to haha... coze very tired and sian nd to travel all the way to Eunos omg haha... so very very sorry to joel and joon kiat heee... bo bian ahhh...

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OMG ... i just gt a news... my cousin is getting married !!!! omg
faint faint faint ... he is only 19 and the gal is only 16 haha... i am so shocked man !!! haha... nw it's in the middle of the nite and i gt tis news.. i think i no nd sleep liao haha... aiyo y my kor kor will so bu xiao xin lol ... is his son a guy or a gal leh ??? nw only 2 months old heee... i wan go and attend their wedding haha... dunno can ma ...

anyway CONGRATES KOR HAHA... must be a grown up le ok .. nw u have a wife to take care le wo heee... jia you wo

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It's better to be LoVe And to B3 Dot3 by SomeOne ThaN to LoV3 and T0 Dot3 SomEOne .
Coz3 y0u WilL Get hUrt BadLy...
It W0uld hurT u VerY vEry De3plY , Th3 FeelIng wilL b3 EveN WoRse ThAn u CuT YouRsElf .
Coz3 TiS Pain Is De3p in YouR HearT Wher3 yOu CanT Bandage iT JusT lik3 U BAndage YouR WounD ThaT y0u hav3 HurT YoUrSelf ...

So Gals OutSide Pls FinD sOmeon3 That L0ve u Mor3 ThAN yOu Lov3 Him ... IF nT th3 0n3 WH0 evenTuaLLy g3t HurT WoulD b3 You ...

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IT'S A BORED DAY TODAY @@@@ ...
wanna go out !!!! haiz .. went to jp to watch MR. BEAN wit jemaine , cla and grace . it was a nice show man hee... so funny ... at first b4 i went into the cinema to watch the show , i was in a low batt mood , but after watching my batt became full haha... in fact it's too full tat i became a bit mad haha.. miss my lao gong so much heee.. cannot go out wit him today haiz.. tml also dunno gt or nt ...
jemaine left my hse le ... i am alone !!! bored !!!! ahhhhh!!!!! i wanna go out ... tis dew days keep going out nw i must stay at hm ... omg i am going to die ...
yesterday reached hm at about 12 coze i went wit dar dar to look for jaspers , max , qing huan , yan qi and doggy at lakeside park there hee... they were having a mini steamboat ... it's so fun being wit them haha... coze there's lots of laugther ...

where should i go tml !!!! i am bored !!! i wanna buy puzzle to play but .. no money haiz ... who wanna buy for me lol ... jkjk

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my bao beizzzz

love lao gong heee

so ugly , yet we r kissing him .omg!!!! faint
yeah so nice !!!

wat are we looking at ???

jiao bin sia
dame face !!!! haha so ugly

at fort siloso me and cla on swing .. we paid $8 to play tis lol

they push me down ... still so happy ... omg evil !!!
dun beat me !!!!

yeah cuttie

so tired . yesterday went to sentosa wit my bao beizz... heee.. so fun .. we took alot of lame lame photos and went to alot of places tat we seldom go when we visit sentosa ...we went to places like fort siloso , siloso beach , palawan beach and during the nite we went to watch the musical fountain heee.. so nice !!!! i wanna go to the underwater world but..they all say other time ... so when we go sentosa next time must bring me go k ??? lol ...

after watching the musical fountain we headed back to boonlay . it's about 9 + when we reach here , i went to meet dar dar coze alot of days nv c him le .. miss him so much heee.. he came to my hse and pei me till about 12 + heee.. so happy ... my dar dar was so sweet yesterday . it has been so long ever since he is so sweet le ... muahahaha

SIAN .... staying at hm today . thought i could at least go to jp but end up i must stay at hm . thought i could have my lunch wit him coze he promise me yesterday but it end up to be eating alone again . nvm then , i shall nt eat .

Yesterday morning , went to gym wit jemiane. Ever since i ended my sec school life , i haven been excercising . Therefore my weight went up hee.. i wan to slim down as much as i can , best is i can slim down to 45kg heee... I will try my very best to reach tis target .
In the afternoon , i went out wit him . Actually we wanna go to the farm mart . but when asking for which bus to go there , there are some misunderstanding . so in the end we went to a wrong place . he was so angry because the weather is so hot and he is sweating all over . in the end we head back hm which i am nt very happy wit it .
from about 3 + we rot at hm till 6 , then he decided to go to IMM to have our dinner .we had pepper lunch for dinner hee... evrything was fine untill when we r going hm ... i asked him 1 question . " wat position i stand in yr heart ?" wat he reply has nth wrong ... he said ' 1st family , 2nd me and his bros ' nth was wrong wit tis but wat made me feel sad was tat , in my heart tis is nt the truth . the truth in his heart was i am in a third position . is nt tat i think too much is just tat i can c where do i stand . i though i could hear something i wanna hear but no i heard something tat i hate to hear . my heart really aches ... my mind is in a mess . he saw hw i feel in the draft tat is in my blog but no reaction was given . nth . nt even one . wat tis means ??? really wish to know ... am i just so nt important ? maybe yes ....i am someone who is dame hell sensitive anything changes can lead me to alot of conclusion . alot of hu si luan xiang ... haiz ... dunno hw to express myself except crying .

i really dunno where i have done wrong to get tis treatment really can anyone tell me ??? can anyone tell me wat should i do ... i really love him alot but i have been hurt so badly ... should i stay on and should i leave ??? even though i dun bare to leave ...

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today is my last day of work ... i really feel very sad coze i am nt willing to part wit them ... time flies ... and i have been working at HITACHI for about 3 months + ... feeling have been developed when i was wit them ... ppl like boonyean , may , wendy , ah gong , kelvin , ah pung , ah teng, david have treat me so well all tis time ... they have been taking care of me when i was there .. i really feeel very sad to leave there actually ... and when finish my work , i went to say bye to the mouse pad i drew the other time there ..know wat ? my tears roll down ... wo zhen de bu she de .. but i hold my tears back ...
since today is the last day , i bought delifrance for warehouse and shipping department ...
during lunch ah gong drove me out together wit wendy and boonyean to jp to buy our lunch ...
i haven have the chance to have a ride in ah gong's car untill today heee.. we gt subway for our lunch today hee... we have fries and ice cream too ... tis last lunch was treat by them .. my boss bought me a bracelet from precious thots too ... i was so touched heee..
they told me whenever i am free i must go back and have lunch wit them heee... and during holiday go back there to work .. heee...
unfortunately , rajan , warehouse supervisor , mother died today ... dun be so sad k rajan ...

tml morning , i am going gym wit jemaine ... heee...
so sian tml dunno where to go ... whenever i ask u where to go or wat should we do .. u will say anything up to u ... i really dunno hw much do i stand in yr heart.... really wish to know something . can u really feel the sweetness in tis relationship ? can u feel hw much i love u ? do u know hw much tears i have shed for u over tis 2 months just becoze u broke my heart once and once again ? do u know hw much u have hurt me coze u always put yr friends in a position b4 me ? do u really know wat i wan ? are u really happy being wit me ? or being wit yr friends are happier ?between me and yr friend leaving u , which one would u feel the pain more do u know i have been thinking hw to get yr attention all tis while ? by banging by a car ? hurting myself ? by all means just to get more of tat attention and concern tat i wan ... tat i nd from u . y cant i get the love and concern like wat i have b4 our 5th months ? y must things change ?

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haven been blogging tis few days coze i have been very busy haha..
tue, i did nt went to work coze i received the letter send by sp telling me to go for the medical checkup . after going for the check up wit my jie mui , we went to chinatown to get their pay for working at hitachi the other time . grace , jemaine and i bought same clothes heee... together wit that shirt , i bought a skirt and another shirt also hee...
we were outside the whole day hee , so tired .

wed , i went back to work le . so sian ..
thurs , today .. went to work also .... haizzz...
tml will be m last day at work le .. i know i will miss the people there de.coze they treat me so well hee... dunno wat to get fro them tml leh ...

now so tired coze today work ot ... haiz ... came hm all alone ... ahhhhhhhhh.. so angry so i went to buy clothes ...

went to watch rain's movie , i'm a cybor buts tats' ok , today after work wit mummy heeee... nt nice de hahah... went hm and look at the SP thing coze they send me some thing... the letter make me so stress haiz .. then dar dar came to pei me heee.... so happy ... b4 tat cla pei me tok on the phone heee...

tml nv work ... going to c doc ... coze needed to haha..

haha... yesterday nite jemaine came to ton at my hse heee... so happpy !!!!!! today we went out to causeway together wit cla ... haha.. i have the voucher there so i bought lots of things heee.... i spend $85 at face shop buying face products heee...
and i bought a pair of heels at charles and keith ...
yesterday i bought a addidas de shoe for mummy .... and i bougt 1 for myself too ... we both have the same shoe ... and i spend about $200 ... ahhhh... faint liao ... no money le heee...
we went to watch a crocodile movie just nw !!!!! SO SCARY !!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG ...the three of us were shouting and hugging each other during the show heee... I GREATLY RECOMMEND TIS SHOW... we went to imm and jp in the later part of the day also heee...

after everything went to find my dar dar heee... today so happy me and my baby nv quarrel hee... if everyday like tat then gd hoh heee ... muackz love u baby ...

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IT'S ALL BECOZE OF U TAT I HAVE TO CHANGE TO A SMALLER HOUSE ... ITS ALL BOCOZE OF U ... I HATE U ...

TODAY 2 BAD THINGS HAPPEN ... I QUARREL WIT MY DAR ... AND ANOTHER BAD NEWS WAS I AM GOING TO MOVE HSE ...

I CANT TAKE IT ... I AM GOING MAD ... i ND SOME BLOOD TO FLOW OUT IN ORDER TO CLAM MYSLEF ....

just wanna say everything out to vain my anger and sadnesss..

ever since the 3rd of feB which is our 5th month, where u quarrel wit poh heng and jasper .. our relationship have changed completly .
after u have made up wit them u spend most of yr time wit yr friends ... everyday day i have to work ... only at nite i can c u . but every time only during the nite u will go and meet yr friends . and tats the time i always free to meet u . during the nite at most i can c u for 4 to 5 hours ... is tat alot to u ... 24 hrs and i only wanna take 4 to 5 hrs of yr time . but even tis u cant give me ... i know for the past few months u already spend alot of time wit me and have further yr friendship wit yr friends but u suddenly have tis changed wit me i really cannot accept it ... i am someone who is ver yvery sensitive ... i tend to think alot ...
i am sure u dun know something. since our 4 month , u have been decreasing the msg u sent me .
even if i dun get to c u , wit yr msg i am already contented ... but of course msg cant replace u . if i can c u is the best .
the sweetness u gave me b4 we stead and after we stead is totally different . b4 we stead u put in all the effort to win my heart . but after u won it ... as days goes by i feel tat the effort is decreasing .
but u know wat ??? as days goes by my love for u is increasing . tats y nw i am feeling more and more sad ...
i doubt u know tat i have been crying almost everyday at nite alone .
u always say i have been keeping everything to myself . but its nt wat i wan . i just dunno hw to express it out . the only way i express hw i feel towards tis is just tears .

i am really very very sad espically tis month ... tears have been flowing down easily . becoze i just miss and love u too much ... sometimes i really feel like ending tis pain once and for all by breaking but i cant bare to do it . coze i love u too deeply .

there are many incident tat make me feel tat as compared to yr bros out there i am just so insignificant ...
eg : i told u jun han drop all my diamonds tat i put on the hp .. wat u say was just aiya nvm lah ... can buy de .... but u know i feel very sad tat day ... its just tat its yr birthday i dunwanna ruin it ... and the cake $30 i pay about all myslef . only jasper paid $4 ... nw its nt the matter of money but for the money i spend i gt is nth ...
the birthday present i gave u ... its still wit me ... when u received it , u didnt even take a single look at it !!!!!!!!! know hw i feel ?

I REALLY FEEL TAT IN YR HEART I AM NTH !!!!

when i saw tat nacy and kelly sms u ... yes i am jealous ... but i keep it down in my heart coze i trust u ... no matter hw unhappy i am , i dun tell u !!! coze i dun wanna hurt out relationship .
whenever we quarrel , i try my very very best nt to tok back coze if i do tat things will worsen and eventually i will say a break ... tis is y i try to keep mum and let u scold and say ...i know hw u feel when i sms david ... so in the end i let u call him ... and i still choose nt to quarrel wit u ... i did tis coze i wan u to trust me ... tats all !!!!!!!

eg : during yr parents birthday , bear bear say i am firlt coze i tok photo wit yan qi ... i cry for so many days .... but u r still helping yr friend and nt me ... i am really heart broken .. really really heart broken ...

my heart nw is in bits and pieces ...

i can only get my laughter back when u r around but ..., i think i cant get it much already ...
school is reopening soon .. the chance to meet is even lesser ... so i think our relationship will go down the track too .

all i can say is i love u alot ... but if my tears continue to flow down... something will happen and i dun think i nd to say it out ...

i dun wanna quarrel wit u .. becoze of tis entry , if u c tis ...if u cant also nvm le ... i just only wanna let u know hw i feel ... coze i cannot say tis face to face wit u ... i really feel very hurt ... but i cant tell anyone

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jemaine here cutting the drumlet
me and grace .. twins today
my master piece ... mr ng still help me frame up in the warehouse leh heee... i am so proud

sweet and spicy chicken drumlets !!!!!!!!!
guess hw many drumlets here???its 22
heee cla eating

grace hee...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABY WEN ZHE ...HE IS ONE YEAR OLD TODAY !!!!!

after work today , went to LOT 1 wit my bao beizz... jemaine and i went to buy the phantom of the opera de ticket ... we will be seeing it on the 2nd of may hee...

after tat we went to eat pizza !!! hee... so many things and its only $50 ... heee..we took lots of photo but in the end i dun wanna up load mine own coze its too ugly hee.. sorry gals

we all bought things hm today heeee... and i spend about $100 heee... broke le hee..

nw i am alone at hm . no ppl pei me also . mummy went out , daddy dunno go where ... dar in jp wit his friends ... haiz i am so ke lian ...

feeling moody tis few days ... y am i also feeling like tis when i am left alone ...

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